missed call

i got a missed call while i was staring right at it

could have picked up, could have made an excuse

but at this point, i’m sure you feel it too

i don’t really want to talk to you

don’t want you to know me at all

i am off and on

i am often not on at all

if i feel it, should i say it?

is talking overrated?

if i say it, should i leave it?

should i just leave you alone?

i don’t like this feeling

i’m sinking back into myself

i am off and on

i am often not on at all

if there’s an escape, most likely i’m already gone

if it’s a mistake, i’ll probably find another one

i am aware of my patterns, threaded the needle myself

but as soon as you trace it with your fingers

i’ll become somebody else